by Cassie Howard | Dec 26, 2016 | Blogging |
I used to think that pleasing others was more important than pleasing myself. How selfish of me to put myself first. That’s not what Mother Theresa would do. Or Ghandi. Or Princess Diana. How DARE I put my needs above others. For years, I struggled with wanting to do things, but not doing them because it wasn’t “fair” to others. I grew up with a lot of fucked up beliefs – I can’t make more money than my partner I can’t make more money than my parents I need to “climb the ladder” and “wait my turn” for success Talking about money is shameful and rude I look back on myself 10+ years ago and all I see is a sad, lonely girl with big dreams, constantly being told that she CAN’T. Somewhere along the way, I think I got lost. I think I started to follow and believe in the dreams of others, and forget or ignore my own, because it “wasn’t my turn yet”. I was told that success isn’t easy, that it takes a LOOOOONG time to attain, and that, even if I DID achieve it, I would do so at a great cost and it wouldn’t be worth it in the end. And so somewhere along the way, I gave up on my idea of success. I got frustrated. Annoyed. And I really think that, deep down, I stopped believing that what I desire is actually possible for me. I stopped listening to my gut. I stopped trusting my instincts. And instead, I let the opinions of others steer me. I had people telling me that...
