GET OVER YOUR BULLSHIT. STOP BEING AFRAID. TELL ME WHAT I NEED TO HEAR. IF I DON’T HEAR YOU SOON I MAY GO CRAZY. I NEED YOU.

GET OVER YOUR BULLSHIT. STOP BEING AFRAID. TELL ME WHAT I NEED TO HEAR. IF I DON’T HEAR YOU SOON I MAY GO CRAZY. I NEED YOU.

I can’t be the only person who feels uncomfortable doing nothing can I? I see people just sitting around.. people watching, watching TV (the news… OMG!), talking to each other about the weather (seriously? you have nothing else to talk about?), laying on the beach.. and it just makes my skin crawl. It makes me physically sick to my stomach. Not that other people are doing it, but just the thought of me doing it..  Nope. Can’t do it. I can’t just do nothing. My soul starts to cry. It starts screaming at me –  GET UP!  DO SOMETHING! MOVE! SPEAK! OPEN YOUR DAMN MOUTH! I need to be doing. I need to be moving. I need to be living.  Sitting still is not living to me. Not that I don’t love to rest from time to time. And I DO have my daily 15 minute “thinking time” ritual, where I force myself to sit still and do nothing for a MAX of 15 minutes to allow me to tune in to my inner self and discover any guidance that may be coming through.  But other than that, I’m busy.  This is why I tend to say NO to a lot of requests to spend time with people. If you ask me to hang out and I say yes, consider yourself one of the chosen few. Not many people get a YES from me when it comes to “hanging out”. If I know you won’t judge me (and may actually ENCOURAGE me) for being on my phone/computer/journal while we’re together, you’re likely to get a yes. 🙂  Because no, I don’t want...