THE TERRIFYING FEELING OF BEING ONE OF THEM

THE TERRIFYING FEELING OF BEING ONE OF THEM

The other day I caught myself. I was talking about the weather to one of the mom’s at the park after school. And then we started talking about summer plans. In the middle of the conversation, my face must have shown my disgust at the realization of what was happening, because all of sudden she said she was going to be late for a meeting, screamed at her son that they had to leave, and booked it outta there. As soon as she left I was able to breathe a sigh of relief. And then I got down to business – The business of reminding myself who the fuck I am.And I am not “one of them”. I know you know what I’m saying! If you follow me, you likely also feel as though you’re not one of them. You’re not like the others. People think you’re weird.You’re called anti-social or stuck-up or bitchy, because you’re often off on your own, avoiding small talk like the weather and summer plans like the plague. It’s a terrifying feeling isn’t it? The feeling of being one of them?Of getting caught in their being of mediocrity. Being at the park after school with my kids is one of my worst nightmares. It’s almost a guarantee someone will try to talk to me. Even with my headphones in!And I can feel it, too. I try to fight it, I try to energetically push them away, because I know, I just KNOW – We’re gonna end up talking about shit that ain’t important.“Oooh it got a bit chilly this week, didn’t it?” (Dunno. Didn’t notice.)“What are your plans for the weekend?” (Avoiding human interaction, what...
DON’T BE AFRAID TO SPEND YOUR MONEY

DON’T BE AFRAID TO SPEND YOUR MONEY

Every time you tell yourself that you have no money, you send a message to the universe that you want to continue having no money.Every second you believe making money is hard, making money will continue to be a struggle.Evert time you believe money is going to be hard to hold on to, money will constantly slip away from you and you will dig yourself into a deep hole of debt.You need to train your subconscious mind to think differently.There is a FEAR around spending money. As if the act of you spending it means you will never see that money again. When in fact, the more you spend money, the more money you shall receive in return. The only catch? What you’re spending money on has to either –Make you happyMake you more money Make feel good Make your life easierIf you went out and spent a bunch of money on stuff that didn’t do any of the above, but you bought stuff that you thought MIGHT make you happy, or on stuff other people told you that you should have, or even worse, to IMPRESS other people –Well, then all you’re doing is adding more and more debt to the pile.However –If you spend money on things/experiences/people that enrich your life and make it better, you can expect more money to return in it’s place.So long as you believe it will happenExpect it to happenAnd consistently call it inFor example –One thing I regularly journal on every morning is MONEY. I list multiple money affirmations that I desire to be true. Beliefs I want (or currently have) around money....
THE TERRIFYING FEELING OF BEING ONE OF THEM

THE THINGS THAT I DREAM OF BECOME MY REALITY

The last time I stayed at this hotel it was June 2016. I was co-hosting an event, where we invested well over $20,000 to host over a dozen women entrepreneurs and show them how to scale their online business. It was the first time I’d ever set foot in a 5-star hotel, let alone one that I was shelling out over $20,000 to for just one weekend. I remember walking into the hotel and just being in awe. It was so beautiful. Way different from my usual Howard Johnson hotel visits, LOL!! Even those rarely happened.. Because I was cheap. I wasn’t broke. But I was broke-minded. I thought of money like something that was only for others. Something that was hard to get (and even harder to hold on to). I’d look at wealthy people walking in and out of these hotels and think “must be nice”. I’ve even had bitter family members say “must be nice” to me when they find out where I live, how much I travel, and what I do with my time. Yes – It is nice, actually.Very fucking nice. And it happened because I decided I was worthy of it. I decided that I was sick and tired of always struggling. I decided that I wanted something more for myself and my family. I decided to free myself of the broke-mindset. I hired coaches with money I didn’t have to teach me the lessons that would forever change the trajectory of my life. I invested in team members, paying them way more than I could afford, to help me do the things...
THE TERRIFYING FEELING OF BEING ONE OF THEM

YOU CAN’T MOVE FORWARD WHILE FOCUSING ON THE PAST

The more time you spend focusing on all the shit that went wrong in the past, the more time you waste – Time that could be used to move you forward. Time that could be getting you further and further ahead – Closer to your goals. Staying stuck in the past is a DISEASE, friend. Wallowing in your misery is a choice. Being angry with yourself for not doing something, or for making a “mistake”, or anything else – Is not helping you.In fact, it’s hurting you.You’ll never be able to hit those goals, and live those dreams by thinking back on all of the things that happened in your past that affected you in a negative way.The past is the past is the past is the PAST.Leave it where it belongs - behind you.Everything you’ve doneEverything you’ve gone throughEverything you’ve overcomeIs what will lead you to where you want to go, but only if you allow it to live in the past while you move forward. Don’t look over your shoulder. Eyes focused on the road ahead - that’s where you’re going.What you want is possible for you, but if you wondering why you still don’t have it, even though you’ve been busting your ass working toward it for AGES now, it’s because you’ve lost your focus.You’ve drifted off your path forward and started back-stepping.Today (and every day) your task is simple:Where do you want to go? Focus on the that. Chin up, feet moving forward, let’s...
THE TERRIFYING FEELING OF BEING ONE OF THEM

BECOME ADDICTED TO DOING THE WORK THAT MATTERS

I love doing the “work”. The practical stuff. I love writing, and putting out an offer, and posting a bunch of IG stories back to back.I love responding to emails and messages. I love digging into my business and re-organizing what needs it. I love tracking my income and expenses and doing all the money work I need to do. I love the planning of new content, new offers, new ideas, new everything (love planning! but honestly only follow through with maybe 1% of what I plan LOL).I love sitting in front of my laptop and engaging with people. I love whipping up a new opt-in.I love creating content for my paid programs. I LOVE DOING THE WORK.This has become a problem, as of late, though. Because the truth is….I think I’ve allowed myself to become addicted to the “busy work”.And as such, my business has not moved and grown as quickly as I’ve wanted it, too. (I’ve been focused a lot on my new tea business, so I know that has been a part of it, but that’s still not an excuse!)I KNOW that the busy work is the least important work.I KNOW that the work that actually allows you to grow and expand and travel to that NEXT LEVEL of wealth and abundance and FREEDOM? Is the INNER WORK.Is the reading.Is the learning.Is the implementing what is learned. Is the journaling.Is the meditating.Is the sitting around and doing FUCK ALL except having a conversation with the universe/god/spirit/whatever you wanna call it. I KNOW THIS. Yet, I’ve been pushing it to the back of my mind over the past few months. My brain has tricked me into believing that the...