by Cassie Howard | Apr 25, 2018 | Blogging |
I used to feel ashamed if I felt bad about something. If I felt fear or sadness or guilt or jealousy.. I would then feel ashamed for feeling that way. Because those were “bad” feelings and bad feelings weren’t allowed. I don’t know why I ever felt this to be true, but I did, and so for years I would filter myself and not allow myself to feel anything other than HAPPY! JOY! EXCITED! PERFECT! Even though I, of course, didn’t always feel like that. There were (and still are) days when I feel fear. Days when I feel sadness. Days when I feel guilt. Days when I feal jealousy. And even days when I feel ashamed. Only now, I allow myself to feel those feelings because I’m human (read: NOT a robot) and humans sometimes don’t feel awesome. And that’s okay. It took me a long time to be okay with ocassionally not being okay. I now have one simple rule that I live by: Allow yourself to feel the way you feel. If it is not a positive feeling, you are allowed to feel it for one day. You can scream, kick, cry, be angry, feel sorry for yourself, and do whatever you feel that you need to do. After one day, you snap the fuck out of it and move on. Consciously choose to look for the light. Seek out the positive and the positive will appear. And this is true in so many ways, for all of us – If you seek sadness, you will find it. On the other hand, if you seek happiness, you will find...
by Cassie Howard | Apr 25, 2018 | Miscellaneous |
I’ve been thinking lately of how different my life is to back in 2015 when all I did was clip coupons, chase deals, and talk shit about rich people and how “unfair” it was that they had it so easy. Turns out rich people don’t necessarily have it easy. It also turns out that most of them aren’t selfish jerks (not the ones I’ve met anyway). Back when I was Canada’s Most Insane Coupon Clipper (meaning I always had a full ROOM in my house dedicated to my stockpile, and always went shopping with 2 binders packed full of coupons for dedorant, canned sauces, and mouthwash), I had this riduculous idea that in order to be “rich”, I had to save money. I believed that saving money was the only way for me to increase my wealth and join those rich folks living the easy life. And although I do believe that saving money is important, what’s more important is what I do with the money I’m not saving. In other words, how you SPEND money is critical. Over the past 3 years, I’ve discovered that I do a lot of spending to “show off”. I want to impress others. I would tell myself that I was “inspiring them” to make it seem okay, but it wasn’t okay. I was buying things and doing things just because I knew those things would look good on Instagram. Or they’d boost my “credibility”. Or some other lame shit that doesn’t really matter. I’ve spend hundreds of thousands of dollars paying for STUFF that I didn’t necessarily WANT to pay for. Stuff that I thought I HAD to...
